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REMIND ME TO KEEP DARING

Two days ago in church, people were coming forth during thanksgiving to share a testimony or say something they were thanking God for as the New Year kicks off. I held myself from joining the rest because I had felt my eyes moist and a lump stuck in my throat. I had a lot to be thankful for and the thought of the journey from January 8 last year till now was rather too deep to be expressed.

Today, I turned 29 and yes, I feel 29.

Let’s start with my siblings and everyone else who is younger than me. Most of last year, I was hit afresh each time someone I was older than celebrated a birthday. It also occurred to me how long I’d spent in the world whenever I got a friend request from an old neighbour or relative who I had not seen in years. You know, looking at the little boy who you always saw running around the compound in his panties now in the university and posting about project reports.

Recently, some colleagues and I were reviewing old TV commercials. As we talked about the commercials, we also discussed soap operas that were popular alongside them. At some point, it became a case of who could remember further back than the other and I had quite a number that I knew. I know I am younger than a large percentage of the world but people, I am clearly an adult around here. *wink*

The only challenge I have is that I am unconsciously beginning to question the usefulness of my ambitions. I sometimes sense that doubt that quietly creeps in to remind you that as you age, some opportunities will no longer be within your reach. I am tempted once or twice to just stop aspiring and be content with status quo.

So, this is me pleading with myself and everyone who may ever catch me losing grip on the fierceness that has always been my essence. This is me, asking to be nudged on days I get overwhelmed with time and its fleeting speed. This is me, asking to be reminded to keep accelerating even if my wheels take a bit longer than I expect to be set in motion. I ask this because in addition to learning how to love myself, I have discovered that life is not to be lived in isolation.

Today has been just about work.

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2 Comments

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    Ogoo
    January 8, 2019 at 5:22 pm

    Happy birthday dear. We will remind you. It will be a sad world if you ever stopped.

    • Reply
      Chisimchere
      January 8, 2019 at 11:16 pm

      You know I will keep at it. Thanks always.

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